"One can fall into the temptation of feeling sorry for oneself, or angry, or worried. The secret attraction of all these options is that they offer an inner payoff or a secret satisfaction, which is the source of the attraction of the mind's thoughts.
If these payoffs are refused, it will be discovered that, at all times, behind the thought screen, there is a silent, invisible, thought-free space of joy."
(The Eye of the I, 79)
After a series of sh*tty misfortunes and mistakes I threw up my hands and started brooding on the couch. Knowing this wasn't the best use of my time or energy, and was reinforcing an unhelpful pattern for later, I thought I'd come to Hawkins to see what he thinks...!